Fear

I feel this tightness in my chest,
Consuming my thoughts its hard to forget the rest.
Looking at the screen,
I see the numbers and want to scream.

So stuck in the day to day turmoil.

Dreams and fantasies now forgotten somewhere in the middle.

With so much stress its hard to carry on,

But they say the night is darkest just before the dawn.

Cooped up inside my brain,

Hold them inside for fear of shame.

Fight all I might,

But the world might win tonight.

Breaking down my defenses,
Frustration and shame overload my senses.
I want to be free,
But how long will it take for that to happen to me.

I want to be strong,
But I've walked this path for so long.
Is that a light at the end of the road so high?
Or just the glistening of sweat in my eye.

Try and try as I might,
I don't know if I have the strength to pull through the night.
Lord, let the dawn come soon,
My body and soul are tired, and it's only noon.